Totality

"Worth everything," someone said, and doesn't that just sum it all up?  Perfect thrill to catch it under a cloudless sky on Old Hickory Lake outside Nashville, capping a wonderful 6 days in America that served as decent inspiration for all that may be ahead - the importance of shifting the daily life's focus to art, creativity, and health, etc.  Back home for a day and the lethargy is clear.  In the book of goals and dreams just a day and a half ago, you wrote of the possibility of sticking around into 2019 at the office for more money, even as you try and pursue the MFA.  If the work continues at this meager, uninspiring pace, I just don't see it.  It would be nice, but the "more free time" call may grow too loud, and it is the change in thinking that is needed, the clean break, to get you out of bed, that can't be solved while tied to the same office and responsibilities.

Europa draw tomorrow to set up a trip to London and Samson's pre-May, with Xmas and NYE elsewhere in another country?  Who knows.  The time for the other Europa - bound soon from Lunenburg to Ushuaia - draws ever nearer.  And in turn so does the chance of the long-dreamed of full escape.  For the third time, you contemplate throwing away a decent job.  The first time you returned in 6 months, the second time in 10.  This time seems like the cord really should be pulled, the safety net left behind in favour of full adventure.  There is time to plan and options available should you find the courage.  The spiritual aura of the mindless time under the umbra is a reminder of what is out there, what awaits.  Get started, and then just do it, eh?

PS - Oh, and the flat?  Fixed like nobody's business, and cheaply done at that at Costco.  Sometmies things can really go from shit to proud/impressive in a hurry.  Worth keeping in mind...